Stressed

Although I was worried beforehand, I knew it was important for me and so I did go to my weight loss meeting on Monday night. I was pleasantly surprised to find out that I released 2.4 more pounds. I wish I could take more credit but I know that it was largely due to stress. I will take it as a win but I recognize that I need to regain control of my diet and exercise. Some much else is out of control but I can at least keep that positive focus.

I do have some good news in that there is a company here in Escondido that is interested in me. Nothing definite but it is an opportunity! I also did networking today and reconnected with a contact I have at UPS. She said she will get my resume into the right hands at UPS but moreover, she said she has two very good customers in Carlsbad that are looking for customer service help so she is going to speak to them. She gave me their names and I immediately checked out their websites. They did not have openings posted but both being bioscience companies made me a perfect fit. Again, as always, nothing concrete, but at least something that feels positive.

I will admit that the vast majority of my energy goes to solving my unemployed status. Any shreds I have over, I want to put into diet and exercise and then I have nothing left. Fear has been such a large part of my life. I have written about it before. I know I cannot give into it now but it is challenging. I did not give into it today, although it was an incredibly hard not to - that's a win. I mustered up a couple job possibilities and although not firm - that's a win. I weigh less today than I did yesterday - that's a win. Stress and fear are constantly here, BUT I did still manage to pull out a couple wins and that in and of itself is also a WIN!