My Ego

"How do you let go of attachment to things? Don't even try. It's impossible. Attachment to things drops away by itself when you no longer seek to find yourself in them. In the meantime, just be aware of your attachment to things."

I have to let Oscar go for a bit. It is just too hectic right now and I am too attached to him. NO I am not in love with him - I just seek from him things that I should find within myself - exactly as the quote above says. It is really difficult to battle my ego like this but I know in time it will subside. It is just the short run that is really difficult, like quitting smoking or something. He is a wonderful guy, I only want happiness from him. I need to let him go because if not I will ruin a very good friendship. I am so bad at letting things go though. My ego is too in control of me. With all the changes that I have been through - I figure now is as good a time as any to add another to the pile. We will be both stronger and better off in the long run. It is just an adjustment - that is all we need.