Problems and Solutions

I got a great raise last April and then I picked up a part time job and was just thinking that I would be able to feel settled again.  Life comes with bumps and bruises and it has shaken me up yet again.  I now no longer have my full time job.  This is not the place for details but it came fast and quick and was a definite surprise.  It seems even before the surprise I was starting to wonder why I felt so much more validated, appreciated, empowered and productive at my part time job.  Now there is no need to wonder.  It really fucks things up but I will get it solved.  I do not currently know what that solution will be and I am terrified but I know that in order to get through this, I yet again, have to create some solutions for myself in order to have as many options as possible.  A lot of the solutions that immediately come to mind are not happy ones but in the end as long as I survive that I have accomplished what I need to do.  I know some folks that do not know me well think I am soft and emotional.  I admit that I have those aspects to me, no denying that, but in truth inside I am cast iron.  I can walk through fire without a grimace, I have done it before.  It is a survival mechanism that served me well many times.  Now I just have to conjure up the strength to move forward and create some solutions.