I talked to my mom today and told her the whole nine yard and my plans. Of course she wants to fix everything but she cannot so it is hard on her. I know I am not a kid but I can only imagine as a parent, regardless of age, I am still always her kid. I am ok with my plan and I am moving it forward. It just kills me that she will worry. That totally kills me. I have always done everything in my power not to cause any worry to my family, ever. And of course since I inherited her traits, I will worry that she is worried. How crazy is that circle? I let her know that I am not above asking for help so she need not worry. She said she would try not to. A kind but not believable lie on both sides.. All I am focused on is that when I pull out all of this then she will be even that much more proud of me - as I will too of myself cuz that nutty circle works in good ways too.
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