Silly Stones

I went to the urologist today for my kidney stone follow up.  I thought that when the pain stopped that it meant the stones passed and the the second episode of pain meant a second stone.  I found out that is incorrect.  The second episode is from the same pesky stone!  My first attack as in March and so the stone has moved but it is still there and it is very large.  Since it has been 7 months the doctor said it is not going to pass on it's own he needs to go in and get it.  I will have to go in for a day procedure.  They will put me under anesthesia and then insert a laser in my winky and zap the stone.  I am not looking forward to that at all!  Luckily I do have health insurance and luckily the pain from the last episode (with the two doses of morphine) is still fresh enough in my mind that I will agree to anything that means I will not have that pain again.  It does have me freaked out a bit.  I have said it before, I get very needy when I am ill.  I will need a ride to the hospital and back and have plenty of friends that I am sure will help me but I hate asking.  I don't like being needy.  I don't like for asking things.  It is silly of me I know and I have to do this to get rid of those silly stones but it all is starting to weigh heavy on my mind.  I do my best to keep my messes to myself. This blog is really one of my primary outlets as I know mostly I get worried over nothing and writing it down helps me greatly.  I do not have a date yet but the doctor said they will call me and let me know the date.  It will all be worked out for the best.  I don't know why I get so many odd medical issues but just keep thinking how lucky that this happened this year while I have insurance and not last year.