Never Can Say Goodbye

Never say never.  I don't know why I have such a problem saying the word goodbye.  I have not had many people leave my life and even less that I have asked to leave.  It truly kills me to say goodbye - even when I know I need to.  When I was in school an English teacher once told me that there is a specific word that always says exactly what is most appropriate and needed.  Which means that need to say goodbye at times and still so struggle with it.  That being said, today I said goodbye.  I just cant't do it anymore.  The stress of not saying goodbye is so much worse than saying goodbye.  I am in a corner and so that is it.  It is right, it is correct and everything will be better because of it.  Now I  just have to stick with it and I suck even worse at that then the actual saying goodbye part but I have to do it.  I always forget that at one point it will just be out of my head and only a rare blip on the radar at times. Never say never but do say goodbye at times.  It may be the only way to save yourself.