Misc

I am trying my best to keep posts going but honestly I find it difficult. I mostly focus on my job search and or about being unemployed so feel it hard to think of things to say. I have another interview tomorrow - it is for a great job with a good company and I completely have the skill set but I am nervous. My ego just keeps getting smashed with each "no" and it is hard for me to keep moving forward without being able to seal the deal. I have prepared though and will go in tomorrow with my best foot forward - I have to. I don't know, perhaps there is a lesson in all this or at least a reason. I am not sure I believe in things like that but I have not been so focused on my weight and health in ages. Last Monday at my weight loss group meeting, I lost 1 lb. I was so proud as I know how hard I fought for that 1 lb and to keep motivated when a lot of times as of late I just want to give up on everything, but progress is progress and that is terrific. Maybe I needed this time not only to improve my health but also fully realize the power I possess. Last November I took this shot of my shadow as I thought it would make a cool picture. After I took the shot I was horrified, look how big I am. Look at my total apple shape! I knew then I needed to work on it but had no energy as I was just trying to survive the hell I was in. Now although I have work still to do on my weight- I know my shadow and me as well, look much better. I do everything I can to look on the bright side and stay positive and trust me shopping in my very own closet is a very positive experience.