OH NO YOU DIDN'T

Last night I was surfing around the web and I was listening to Kirsty MacColl's version of Belle of Belfast City.  I love Kirsty and Michelle always raves about this song and so I finally got to check it out.  It is a raucous blast of a song and of course I love Kirsty even more (RIP).  Well today while thinking about this Irish perfectness of a crazy song I was thinking how nuts Michelle must go when she hears it so I sent her a text. What I wrote was, "was listenting to Belle of Belfast City on youtube last night - you are a nut".  That is not a very clear text and I will admit it.  I knew how unclear I was when I got her response of, "Oh please because it is not a blonde from the 60's or 70's it is not good.  I grew up with that song much like you grew up with 70's light fm... x".  To which I promptly replied, "I wasn't clear - I like the song A LOT & ur a nut cuz I can so picture u being a maniac as it is played!!! LOL - it is a good thing :)"  Then for the rest of the night I could not stop laughing because I accidentally poked the bee's hive.  It is like when you unknowingly scare somebody and after they jump a mile then you die laughing.  I even ended up calling her and just could not stop laughing.  She told me that after a tense black Friday and some continued craziness in her office my message sent her over the edge plus that "those are fighting words" and I "got her Boston up".  I was very happy to see that after all these years, and with all her challenges of late, she still has plenty of fight in her - oh that redheaded spitfire.  You know I am not the speediest car in the race but I do certainly know two things:   I much prefer Michelle on my side and never, never, never jab at the bear with a big mop of red hair and a pink flamingo tattoo.   I totally did not do this story justice - maybe you just had to be there but I am still laughing and still love you lots!

Luck of the Irish

Here is the story I told you that I would tell you about.  On Wednesday night Loren asked me to go out with him for a drink on him so I said ok.  We ended up at this Irish bar her in Esco and it was a rowdy night because of the Thanksgiving holiday.  They had a band playing that was very good but it was kinda loud so we went out back to patio so we could talk since I have not seen him for a while.  As soon as we got out there people started talking to me - sure they were drunk but they were friendly and in a good mood plus you know me, I will speak with just about anyone that speaks to me.  It was a silly night but the kicker was that this ex-marine named Ian from Alabama originally and kinda looked like Jason Statham turned out to be gay and hit on Loren, who is straight.  I died!  So funny.  Loren is a good guy and declined Ian in a polite and respectful manner BUT Loren is a sucky wingman as he totally did not steer Ian my way.  A friendly, handsome, age appropriate, gay man that lives in Esco????  THANKS Loren - ugh.  Although Ian did give me his number later and said we should get together.  I was pleased to take his number as I am looking for similar local friends   He actually contacted me on Saturday to go out but funds are low so I asked about the next Saturday.  He sounded excited so I hope so.

Actually this weekend was the weekend of age appropriate men.  I met up with a guy from online this morning.  It was just a hookup but it went well.  It is good to enjoy at times - I am human and a man after all.    He left with a large smile and he said I will be hearing from him a again.  That would please me but it was just nice to enjoy and be wanted for a little bit.  I don't do that thing often but again I am human.  He did text me later in the day and so that made me smile, again.  

At the end of the day and without having too many plans going in to the Thanksgiving day weekend - I  enjoyed myself.  Dinner at my friend Michael's house was great.  I enjoyed the meal and company very much .  It just turned out to be a lot of surprises each day and I am happy.  Now it is time to get back to work.  I have a lot to do, a lot to fix and a lot to solve but I certainly feel recharged to do so.

Unrelated - isn't the pub kinda cute?  I have been there a couple times and it is ok.  But what I mean though is the picture - I think it came out so awesome.  As you know I recently found my London pictures and so looking at them and now looking at this, it really looks authentic   I am gonna post more London pictures so I will make sure at least one is a pub to see what you think.

Happy Thanksgiving

Wednesday turned into a day full unexpected surprises.  One I posted below and one I will posted here and one I will post in the future.  I did not have plans for Thanksgiving and I was ok with that.  I have cleaning and exercise to do plus a day off is always welcome.  It seemed most people are headed out of town.  My friend Michael that I worked with in Temecula and I still am in touch with often - texted me on Wednesday night.  He asked what I was up to and invited me up for dinner.  I have not seen him in a while or meet his new baby so I accepted.  I used to work with his wife also and have met his family before so it I am pleased.  I am also super thankful for all my blessings and at the top of that list are friends.  Friends are the people in the world who wish to be in your life for no other reason than they enjoy you.  There are a lot of joys and important things is this world but friends have always been one of my most cherished treasures.  I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday and enjoys time also with what they cherish the most.

She Got My Back

I put that last post up about my challenges and when I did, I thought about it a lot.  I am not super depressed by any means.  I was just looking through my current challenges at the good things, which I still have many of.  I feel positive and I know that I am just in down cycle, which I am working on.  Judy sent me a gift - very thoughtful, touching and generous   I really appreciate it - I truly do. She has a lot going on right now and a whole plate full of her own worries.  I was just expressing my feelings.  Judy already has given me so much - I would not have this blog if it was not for her.  This blog means so much to me and says that I was here - good, bad and indifferent - which is important to me.  Every human wants to have it be known they were here and it was important that they were.  She can be silly and make me laugh and she laughs with me but most enjoyable, she laughs at me.  I just was expressing myself and her unexpected and kind gesture made me feel bad for a short moment as that was not my intent but  for a larger moment - which remains with me - it reminded me of my blessings like having good friends that have your back.  I do not want any more gestures, although completely appreciated -- this will pass, it is just a lay over on a wondrous flight.  I am thankful.

Not Really

I used the last of my cash today to stock up on SpaghettiO's to make sure I have food to last to 11.30.  I do not say that for pity - it is what it is.  I had some crappy things happen.  I made some bad decisions.  I am figuring it all out.  The point though is that while at the store I thought at least I can still afford SpagettiO's and I am not at the Ramen Noodle level yet.  It sucks but I am working on resolutions and in the meantime I am figuring it all out.  I will admit it does depress me a bit but there is not an alternative - there is no other choice but to make it through this and make things better again for myself.  I have my health back, I have a comfortable home, I have a job I enjoy and I am working on a plan to make things better for the long run.  Sure I feel a bit stupid for getting into this situation but I know that I always do best under pressure.  In addition - I am living in austerity - how nice does that sound, if you do not think of the meaning of austerity.  And I am building character and adding the story of my life.  Onward to the future!

This is Me

I took this picture also while in London.  It is not really me but it is my future.  An old man all dressed in black and feeding the park life.  It is not a sad future it is a happy one.  It was a super nice day out and I know he is content and enjoying himself.  I want my life to be this peaceful and quiet.  I am sure I can have it be that way, I just need to stop making stupid decisions.  Sometimes I do things and it feels other worldly to me.  I know what I am doing but I don't control myself or more to the point, stop myself.  You only live once so I do my best but right now I am feeling that I am failing.  I wasted this past weekend on bad decisions.  I have the Thanksgiving break coming up so will try to re-group, focus and make something worthwhile out of it - even if it is just cleaning.

WooHoo!!!

Seems I always take two steps forward and one step back.  I got this kidney stone resolved and was lucky to do so but got a very large and unexpected bill from way back.  I could have sworn it was all set - again it was from a while back.  I went searching through my files and believe I found what I need to show this bill is all set.  I will know tomorrow when I call.  However the real point of this post is that I found my pictures from London!  I am sooooooo excited over that!!!  I went to London in October 2006 and cannot believe it was that long ago!  After I got back I lost my camera along with my photo card which contained my pictures from London.  I knew that I had the pictures on a disc somewhere but could not find the disc anywhere and I did look for it recently.  While looking tonight for the paperwork I needed, I found my disc with ALL my pictures from London.  That was such an amazing trip and I will never forget it.  I quickly put all the pictures also on a memory stick as they are easier to store and it gives me back ups of the photos.  Maybe I will go and create one of those hardcover photo albums which as so cool.  In the meantime here are some pictures.  I will post more in later posts.  You can see my style does not change much when it comes to photography.  I hope to get this crazy bill issue resolved tomorrow but if not I am still so excited I found my London pictures.