I Am Worried

Got a call that they rushed my father to the hospital. He had a heart attack and although he is not in good health, he has never had heart problems. They did some tests and said he needed an operation to fix his heart. The operation has a 98% success rate and it will add years to his life. With out the operation he has 6 months. So he is having the operation on Monday at a hospital in Boston. I feel bad and it makes this strange Christmas that much stranger. I feel mostly for my mother. My father is in the hospital and getting excellent care but my mother worries so - all the time. I know I am just like her but she still worries even more than me.

Then there is that whole lack of emotion factor in my family. I love my family, you all know that but it is only my mother and I that are emotional. My father does not take care of himself so I have been expecting this call for years. I am good with my relationship with him. I do not want anything bad to happen but there are only two definites in life. It is all very strange, strange indeed. I think he will be fine, I hope he will be. I just hope my mother is too.