Ok I Will Admit It

I am sad that I will not be in MA for Christmas. I am super happy about my new job and it is going well, so I know that I have a huge blessing to be happy for but I have never not been with my family for Christmas. They are completely nuts but I love them for it. When do I ever complain or fuss about my family? When do I ever say this sibling is fighting with that one or someone is causing drama? That just is not my family and I am incredibly fortunate for it. While I was at the boss' Christmas party yesterday there were other east coasters that were laughing and joking about how happy they were not to go back for Christmas because it was too much work and too much of a hassle. I felt bad for them that that was their view of their family. I know I am lucky that I was able to go back all these previous years and although I am far away I don't think it ever really dawned on me that this could ever possibly happen. Seems I did not think the one through too much.

Anyway I wanted to be cheered up some so I went down to Mexico last night and hung out with Oscar. It was fun of course but he asked if I was going to Boston for Christmas and I told him that I could not. I told him it was ok because maybe I could go in February for a longer period of time or can save money to go in June for my niece and nephew's high school graduation. He invited me to his house to spend Christmas with his family. He has nothing but he has his family and so it meant a lot to me. I actually cried. I have gotten a lot of nice invites like that so far and again, I am lucky for that. I do not know what I will end up doing but regardless of what it is, I will appreciate the gifts that I have received in my life, like my family and friends. Still doesn't mean it doesn't make me cry.