10.18.10

Today was a horrid day. Nothing went right and nothing got any better. I just took a percocet and I am about to turn off all the lights and figure out how to convince myself that tomorrow is a new day with a new start and new potential. I mean how many times can I tell myself that. It is craziness to do the same thing over and over and expect different results. Although I read a story about a guy that played the same exact lottery numbers every day for 9 years and then won millions. He did the same thing every day with conviction and one day he got drastically different results. Well I am going to let everything go for today. I will take a deep breath and see what I can muster up for tomorrow. Good night.