Jose

More clicks folks - many, many, many more clicks.

I met Jose just over a week ago while out having a blast with Matt. Since then I have seen him 4 more times. We have gone to dinner, dancing, hung out, and out at the beach. I think I may be a bit more of a negative person than I thought because when there is a negative I can write for days. With Jose - there is so much positive but I hold back. Perhaps I just am afraid to jinx it but it is not difficult to say at all, it is off to a very good start.

Tonight after dinner we went to the beach. We walked and talked and enjoyed the always beautiful SoCal night air. In the distance from a bar I could here "Love Remains the Same" by Gavin Rossdale. Not a typical love song but I like it a lot. I told Jose I liked it. He asked me to dance. As we held each other close and moved in gentle circles in the sand with waves collapsing on the beach - it dawned on me --- I am 3,000 miles away from where some many people call my "home", I did that alone and with my own determination, I have not spoken English in 4 hours but have had no lack of conversation, I am in the arms of a gentle and sweet man who wants nothing more from me than to see a smile on my face. You know what happened next - the tears came forth. Damn I get so caught up. He was so concerned - I told him that it was because I was so very happy. He said he was glad but that his happiness, to be with me, towered just as high.

Again folks - many, many, many more clicks.