Tonight Jose came over to my house. He surprised me with candles and a very sweet get well gift. I have had cold symptoms that were just not getting better so I went to the doctor on Friday and got some high powered anitobiotic. What a super night! Dinner in downtown Esondido. Drinks on my deck under a star packed sky. So romantic and comfortable and yet effortless. Then we watched this movie. It is from Spain and is a sweet comedy of a bunch of people and how their lives inter-twined one crazy, hot day in Madrid. It is all about happenstance with a bit of destiny thrown in. Very enjoyable and so fitting considering I met Jose exactly one month ago today. I did not think my smile could get any bigger, but it has.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Frozen Custard
I Tried
Friday, September 19, 2008
Michelle's Memories - Guest Appearance
"So I met Matt at Bloomies, does he look even more handsome in a suit or what?! We had a lovely dinner at Sardi's. I had crabcakes he had steak and we split some apps. I have always enjoyed dining with Matt because he loves food and will try fun things and new combos. A good sharer! The theatre was a half block away so we could take our time. Our seats were about 7 rows from the stage! The show was amazing, very true to the movie. No, I did not sing, though I really wanted too!!! Patti Lupone must be close to 60, she sounded great and was really moving around up there. The scene changing was cool--there was this part where the kids were preforming "the Act" and the stage was lit with a stobe light so you could not see the switch from little kids to teens. They seemed to grow up before your eyes. After we tried to escape the crowd by crossing the street, where Equus was letting out. We wound up right in the middle of a crowd around Daniel Radcliffe. He does have beautiful eyes but wow is he short! What night!!!!! I will remember this show for the rest of my life.You can post this!!!!!"
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Super Sonic
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Monday, September 15, 2008
The Show Me State
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Cue the Curtain
I knew a girl and her name was Judy
She used to do things I thought were rude
But I never said anything to her face,
'Cuz my friends thought she'd kick my arse all over the place.
Used to think she was kinda cool (kinda cool)
I saw her walking all around the school (around the school)
All the older boys would stop and turn their heads,
All the older girls wished that she was dead.
Judy, whatcha gonna do?
When you're older and no one wants to know ya?
I will look out for you,
If you will look out for me
I know I'm not as hard as you
But I think I can see right through you.
Now me and Judy we're the best of pals (best of pals),
She took me dancing to the early hours (early hours)
And showed me things I've never seen
Mum always asked me where I'd been
when I'm with,
Judy, whatcha gonna do?
When you're older and no one wants to know ya?
I will look out for you,
If you will look out for me
I know I'm not as hard as you
But I think I can see right through you.
When you go,
Home at night,
Are you still looking,
For a fight?
You know you're mum,
Is not that mean,
But still you want to,
Rip out her spleen.
Judy, whatcha gonna do?
When you're older and no one wants to know ya?
I will look out for you,
If you will look out for me
I know I'm not as hard as you
But I think I can see right through you,
ooooh
ooooh
What's in your head?
Clarification
Sunday, September 14, 2008
No Hard Feelings
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Email from Scott to Judy 09.05.08
I read this on your blog: "Another is to remove or keep at arms length the things or people in my life who I feel do not respect or value me and therefore make me feel bad about myself."
I feel I fall into this category. Is that correct?
No response from Judy.
Email from Scott to Judy 09.13.08
hey there - hope you are well You never answered my below email - i have not heard from you in ages - I can only assume that is my answer. I will be respectful as I have no interest in making people unhappy.
No response from Judy.
Text from Scott to Judy 09.14.08
Hey sure it is ok to shit on me - especially since since so many have shit on you. Very sweet of you - I get it.
Text from Judy to Scott 09.14.08
Ok its all about you - I haven't responded because I knew you would attack me no matter what I said or how I'd say it. I can't deal with that right now. You have been far more hurtful than you realize. You're so self absorbed you don't and won't see it.
Text from Scott to Judy 09.14.08
Very well then.
Monday, September 08, 2008
Jose
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I met Jose just over a week ago while out having a blast with Matt. Since then I have seen him 4 more times. We have gone to dinner, dancing, hung out, and out at the beach. I think I may be a bit more of a negative person than I thought because when there is a negative I can write for days. With Jose - there is so much positive but I hold back. Perhaps I just am afraid to jinx it but it is not difficult to say at all, it is off to a very good start.
Tonight after dinner we went to the beach. We walked and talked and enjoyed the always beautiful SoCal night air. In the distance from a bar I could here "Love Remains the Same" by Gavin Rossdale. Not a typical love song but I like it a lot. I told Jose I liked it. He asked me to dance. As we held each other close and moved in gentle circles in the sand with waves collapsing on the beach - it dawned on me --- I am 3,000 miles away from where some many people call my "home", I did that alone and with my own determination, I have not spoken English in 4 hours but have had no lack of conversation, I am in the arms of a gentle and sweet man who wants nothing more from me than to see a smile on my face. You know what happened next - the tears came forth. Damn I get so caught up. He was so concerned - I told him that it was because I was so very happy. He said he was glad but that his happiness, to be with me, towered just as high.
Again folks - many, many, many more clicks.
Friday, September 05, 2008
Sweet Baby Jesus - The Return of Richard
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I left it up to him to contact me - which he didn't - and which I expected so was really not phased at all by it. I did however send a text to say thanks for everything and best of luck. He responded he had been sick. I deleted his number and that was that. I actually am growing used to the power of delete.
Matt and I last Saturday march on into the Redwing to enjoy his last night in SD and voila - there is Richard in the exact same stool I met him sitting at some months ago. It seems his health has returned. A high pitched "Heeeeey" by him followed by a pat on the back, thinly disguised as a hug, and some air kisses. He also solemnly told me he lost my number when he got a new phone. I responded with an "Ahhh", but no offer to give him my number again. OMG - do you think I care? Anyway no need for drama - I was polite and fun although his weird friend Richard kept drastically invading my personal space and also his friend Richard's bf was hitting on me. Matt and I moved to the patio when the karaoke began.
This week I get a text from him to say that I was not very social (it seems he found my "lost" number). This is from the guy who I could not for the life of me keep a conversation with on anything for more than 5 minutes, and I tried! I responded that I was very social, gabbed with bunches of people and enjoyed time with Matt. He responded that my new bf was very handsome. I only responded that Matt was a very fun guy that I loved a lot - true - just not completely truthful, ha! Whatever. All is fine - no harm no foul - I tried, you stopped -- so just let it go. I know that seems like funny advice from me who has loads of problems letting go but I am not that insane. Glad your well, wish you continued good health and fun, but BUUUURRRP "Sweet Baby Jesus" it's ok, let it go.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
20 Plus More Years
After I got back to SoCal it dawned on me that exactly 20 years ago on August 16th Michelle and I went to an Irish bar in Boston so I could celebrate my first legal drink when I turned 21 at midnight. Here is the text that followed:
Scott: It dawned on me that 20 years ago we did the same same thing for my birthday. I can't think of better times had.
Michelle: Amazing how many milestones we have shared. Thx for making time for me.
Scott: Here is to 20 plus more years. I can't wait to play bingo with you in the old folks home.
Michelle: There will be an 80's night but we will think its music and we'll be the youngest seniors in the place.
Scott: No matter where I end up, the thought of you tells me that I am home and I am loved.
Michelle: Home is where the heart is. It doesn't matter where we go or what we do it is love. I love you too! Happy Birthday.
Michelle - I do not understand how I became so privileged in this lifetime to have you in my life - but I cannot express how truly happy I am. Love you much.
The End of Ramiro
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While I was in MA out the blue I get a shocking call from Ramiro. He was back in SoCal and wanted to see me. I was so surprised by all this but was curious. We did end up going out on our date finally. As he walked down the street toward me I was reminded how handsome he was. I also got a tad of a tingle. We had dinner and then a very enjoyable night of dancing, some drinks and many laughs. I asked him point blank what he wanted from me and he said that I was his type, very handsome and he wanted to know me better. He was all over me all night long.
All very nice but as we parted ways he told me he had to give his brother back the cell phone he had been using but that once he got his own cell phone he then he would contact me. That was over 10 days ago so I quite happily have not been holding my breath for his call - as it still has not come yet. I am glad I gave him a second chance. It was very fun for sure but moreover very enlightening as it proved to me first instincts are usually right. So I have deleted his number for a second time and yet instead of ending in tears, it ended in a sense confidence. Adios amigo!
Monday, September 01, 2008
That Click
First though - he is an excellent wingman. While out on Thurs night with him I met Jose. At first he snubbed me or so I thought but Matt "stirred the pot" and I got the courage to try again and it worked! Got a couple kisses before the night was through and a number.
Saturday night had a great dinner with Matt and then some more laughs before I let him do some solo hunting and for me to head over to Jose's. What a great night. He lives in El Cajon, the same city as Rick so that is a good start, and he is 38 and is legal and is fantastic. Although I admit I must have had more to drink than I recall about Thurs night as I remember his English being better than it is. I can work with that since my memory of how handsome Jose is was still right on.
I don't like to jinx things or get too far ahead of myself but Jose and I had a great night tonight. A fantastic dinner in SD, lots of conversation, and bunches of laughs. Perhaps I got caught up in the perfect Socal night effortlessly lit by the stars. Perhaps it was the relaxing feel of the cool ocean air. Perhaps it was because I am here by myself, 3,000 miles from Boston, having a date in another language of all things but I dunno - I felt a click. You know ---- that click. Right now I will chalk it up to a great night but I know as I sat completely content and happy, my arm around his shoulder and his head on my shoulder - we both smiled. And I distinctly felt, that click.