I Was so Mad at Myself

I lost my wallet again!  I was really, really upset about it too.  One it was a Coach wallet and I definitely do not have the money to replace it again (like I did the last time I lost my wallet).  Two it cost $30 to get a replacement license   My license is due expires in August of this year so I think I will just wait until it is due for renewal to get a new one but I am not sure.  But mostly I was incredibly upset with myself because it just makes me feel so stupid.  It is such a strong reminder of how forgetful and absent minded I am and the consequences of it.  That last part really got to me.  I got so mad and upset with myself.  Doctors have told me that as long as I remember things like my phone number, address, etc then it is normal.  I play memory games and word searches to help my mind.  I try not to do things in routine.  I get so frustrated.  As I think more about it then I feel it is not that I forget things but that I do not pay attention to things.  I don't know where my mind is it just wanders constantly.  

I think I will speak to the doctor about not paying attention a lot of the time but for now I just decided that there is no sense in beating myself up.  There are plenty of good and less expensive wallets available so that is nothing major plus all the contents are replaceable.  I just decided to see that although annoying it did not end my world - no one ended up in the hospital over it - and I know I can focus when I really need to like at work.  I made the decision that instead of being mean to myself over it that I would just deal with it and move on.  Why look at it so negatively?  It is not a positive but is it worth raking myself self esteem over the coals?  It seems that you do not have control over life and I understand that but also life is how you see it, and I do have control over how I see things.