Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Yellow Light


I am really social by nature - perhaps no news to most of you but truly I would go bonkers if I was not talking with people.  I did start my new Spanish class to continue my learning and to get out a bit but I wanted to meet new people too.  There is a woman in my class named Carla that is really going out of her way to be my friend but I have been standoffish.  I cannot put my finger on it but it is just a yellow light to me.  First off although the class is super easy for me, I decided to stay as I can work on my pronunciation which really needs work.  I am getting something from that class which I can benefit from and I made that decision - perhaps not the same benefit others are getting but a definitely something that I am excited about.  Carla's Spanish is poor and yet she puts no effort into the class.  She wants to chat about miscellaneous stuff and so I told her once, "Esta bien conmigo pero hablas en Espanol por favor", she stopped talking at that point that night.  She does seem nice, a bit more negative that is my taste so I stay distanced.  Of course because I live in 5 square miles I have bumped into her unexpectedly twice outside of class.  Once at the grocery store and once at the vintage car night they have downtown.  We chatted both times -she is nice enough but I just don't know what it is - something says yellow light.  And then you know me - if I like you it is so apparent and everything else just pales in comparison.  I hate to say this too but I think it is also because I need some more penis in my life.  Don't get  me wrong, I love all the female friends I have - I truly cherish them but my dance card is kinda full of that.  Men have a different point of view and vibe and I am a man and I want to beef up that area of my life, no double entendre intended.  For example there is a nice guy in the class named Don, I would love if he wanted to be my buddy.  It is nothing sexual.  He is straight and married but around my age and I like his perspective and point of view.  It has nothing to do with his penis really, which I know nothing about, but he tries in class and he has a good sense of humor and he just seems much more relaxed and like he is not trying so hard.  Maybe that is it, since she is trying so hard I am wondering why.  Hmmmmm, we will see how this story works out.  But she is nice.  Hmmmmm.