Happiness

I so not have my heads in the cloud, I understand the world and how it works but because of that what I do not understand are negative people.  I am so much happier now that I am not leader of my weight loss group as I do not have to deal with everyone one, just the ones I like.  And the ones I like are the positive people.  The other night I was chatting with a couple of them after the meeting.  One lady named Mary Ann who is normally really quite opened up to me but it was in a positive and learning manner.  It really touched me.  I said to her, "Is it ok if I give you a hug?" which is odd for me as I am not too touch feel-ly.  She said she would like that and so I gave her a big hug and told her I thought she was just lovely.  She beamed and said her kids live in Nevada so she does not get too many hugs and that it really meant a lot to her.  I smiled.  Isn't that the moment people look for?  Does not have to be monumental.  Ah that crazy shit they write in book and hallmark cards.  It is exaggerated for effect.  I don't need to move a mountain, I just needs a moment of truth and sincerity and then I remember why the world is great. 

I have a couple of other friends outside of the weight loss group and I have been thinking a lot about them.  They are good people and can be very caring but they are negative.  I was going to write a post about each one but I decided not to.  They just do not see the positive and I actively seek it out.  I have too.  It is what makes sense to me.  I mean I have a crappy brother - oh well, he is a good husband and a good dad and I have other family members that are amazing.  Why dwell on the fact that the only connection I have to him is DNA?  It just does not makes sense to me.  There is no payout there?  Or I was so mad at Christmas about my part time job coming through.  Now I have it and I truly think how happy I am that I get to start in the summer when it is slower and not in the middle of the holiday insanity.  I try to show them the positive in things but honestly it bugs them.  I am not preachy or condescending about it but it just has become my second nature.  I am not perfect but I totally work on it and expend energy in finding the positive because there is a payout there.

In case you are wondering what the image has to do with this post, well I was surfing and just thought it was exquisite.  It is Geogia O'Keefe and when I saw it I smiled.  It made me happy.  I was not looking for Georgia O'Keefe are but there it was.  I love the colors and the complexity made to look so simple.  After I saw it it remained with me and I continued to enjoy it even when not looking at it.  You have to look but you will find happiness.