The year just started so I won't fill it up with negativity but I am bugged. In the past month or so three friends did actions to me which I did not like so I told them that. I tried to do it in a polite manner. I don't have much to bad say about how my friends treat me, quite opposite as it is usually over the top wonderful. But each time it was met with negativity. I did tell folks to please don't do that, I do not like it. I even had to tell one, "Look I am not joking. I am being serious and this is upsetting to me". Now I did not ask anyone to convert religions or have a sex change and so I thought my requests would be met with an "Oh ok thank you for letting me know" or even a "Oh I did not realize" but no. And I am not stockpiling. In my long term relationship I would stockpile. I would let a bunch of things go unsaid thinking that when I did say something it would be heard clearly and understood as important. The world does not work like that. I realize that now and so do not stockpile. But I do have the right to say when something is upsetting to me. I know also though that I do not get the right to always getting the response that I want but it would have at least felt a little better if I even got and "Oh I understand". Uff maybe I am just becoming a grumpy old man.
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