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This summer I had three sets of visitors so I cleaned three times.  I am not good at cleaning so it is not that tremendous but as I got to the third time I really went all in (for me anyway).  It was during that third cleaning go round that I came across nude pics of my ex from a million years ago back in MA.  OH MY.  I say pics but they are pictures - they were developed on photo paper and all.  What a very odd surprise.  I knew they existed, obviously I took them, but the part that made it odd was I did not know I had them.  I have been here 10 years - how crazy is that.  They are dated 2003 so they are 13 years old, wow.  Anyway of course I thumbed through them, There are about 20 maybe.  I am looking at them and back them he was like Montgomery Clift to me and now looking at them with no veil whatsoever I was like, hmmm.  I was not repulsed at all but  there was not that swoon I remember. There was kinda nothing actually.  I was more stuck on, I have these?  I was gonna throw them out, I really was.  Then I tossed them into a draw.  It was not at all that I could not throw them out, I will tell you what it was.  Often I think of the person or persons that will have to go through all my shit after I pass and the thought of them finding those naked pics tucked in a draw made me laugh out loud for real.  I am not mean but I am mischievous.  In their head I was thinking, "Smiley face, smiley face, nude pictures, smiley face, smiley face...".  Oh that slays me.  I was gonna take a pic of the pics for this post but instead I just used this hottie, who does make me feel things.  Silly, silly, silly.

I Feel I Posted This Before

I used to buy VHS movies but I rarely watch a movie again.  Then when DVDs came out I kept having an urge to buy them but would remind myself that I don't watch them so don't waste your money.  Now of course everything is on demand which is cool but not my point.  This movie is actually a movie I have seen more than once.  It came out in 1996 and I first saw it at the movie theater.  My poor memory and yet I remember it clearly.  I saw it at the Nickelodeon on Comm Ave behind BU.  I went by myself as I heard it was a good movie.  So that is an understatement.  Very sweet and nice and optimistic but not in an unrealistic Disney sense.  Quirky with British humour.  It really made me smile, feel at peace and gave me hope.  Bittersweet to see such a wonderful movie alone but that did not detract from my appreciation of the film  I also remember years down the road saying to him that I wanted to watch this movie with him as it was really good and very special.  His review was "Yeah it was good.  They talk funny".  So seeing it alone the first time guess not that bittersweet.  Well I eventually did buy it on DVD because it is a rare gem.  I then lent that DVD to a coworker and it never came back.  I just recently bought it again.  So I rarely buy movies and now I have purchased this one twice.  It just arrived and I look forward to watching it again.  Wow and 20 years on and I will watch it alone again.  Hmmm, not sure what that says but not everything has to say something.  Oh and there is this sweet scene with Body Shop Peppermint Foot Lotion.  Really sweet.  Tender is the right word.  Well I bought him the Body Shop Peppermint Foot Lotion.  Me trying to make fantasy be reality.  Oh I am hopeless :)  In writing this it dawned on me that some how that foot lotion ended up with me.  My house is chaos and yet I knew exactly where it was.  I went and pulled it out of the draw.  All these years.  I don't use it but could not before throw it out.  Today I looked at it, so silly I thought.  I then tossed it in the trash.  No importance.  No connection.  Watch this movie.  It will make you feel young and sweet and happy.