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Judy and I we talking and she asked me some questions about my ex. They were just questions out of curiosity but I really did not know the answers. Water longtime past under the bridge. Also his way to deal with things is to figuratively kill people off. I saw him do it to many people including his very own father so it made sense when he did the same to me his substitute father figure - although it is still hurtful. Curiosity gets to us all at times so with a little cyber stalking on both our parts turns out he got married and is doing fine. Everything matched with what I ever knew, nothing is different. All the pictures were with drinks (the only way he could ever relax) and all the discussion was around travel (the only thing that made him happy - yet another avenue of escape his reality). One post that made me chuckle was excitement over a trip to Mexico as I can be standing in Mexico with just a 30 minute ride lol. Marriage does not surprise me. It became legal when I lived in MA and he talked about it then and I was like ummmm no. The part that really got me is that he changed his name. It struck me most because I would NEVER change my name. I may not have the most prestigious name but it is mine and my parents gave it to me and I would NEVER give it up. Because of my own point of view I found it shocking he gave up his but it makes sense. He HATES his father and he was a junior so his own name literally reminded him daily of all that he despises. He also is embarrassed of his overall family and where he is from. I am not. I love my family. They are crazy and far from perfect but I did well in that department. I love them. Judy and I had laughs and it was all silly as we learned nothing ever really changes. Judy asked if any of it bothered me and I answered honestly that it did not. I do not wish him harm, I do not wish him fortune, he is just another person in the world. With that being said I did tell her that I am good with not knowing anything else more for another 7 years.
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