Embarassing Moment #3053 and Confession #182

I really don't know why but I forget so very often that the world is real and not TV. People can see me, they can hear me, and they often speak to me. Still I fade into somewhere otherworldly and think that I am invisible to them. Lately I have been trying to be productive so have been at the gym with a fantastic regularity. I flip on my headset and put the calorie burning on autopilot. My headset is the most bizarre collection of songs and I know if it were ever stolen it would be promptly returned to me. It only has about 50 songs on it and I tried to assemble it as a soundtrack to my life - the movie version. The elliptical is my favorite and always makes me sweat like nobody’s business. Just as I am thinking I can muster no more strength to continue this song comes on. The power reserves kick and the endorphins start churning. Not only do I press on but also I can actually feel my smile starting to hurt because it is being pushed to its utter extremities. The gym fades and an amazing world of everlasting love opens before my eyes. A scene of ongoing happiness that I have experienced and witnessed in my life filled with the wondrous people and places I have experienced on this grand journey. My eyes are watery from the happiness. I think I am kinda dancing (actually I know I am). I am radiant in the nuclear afterglow kind of intensity. Then a man comes along and says something and the spell breaks. I see hips lips move but that is about all. I pop out one of my ear buds and he repeats - "Man if everyone had whatever you are listening too there would not be one person skipping going to the gym". I turn fire engine red as it dawns on me that me journey into this supreme stratosphere of joy is being broadcast live to the all other members present at the gym. I want to say something incredibly wry but can only laugh out of the extreme embarrassment.

I don’t know that I would place any bets on me ever getting married in the legal sense prior to conclusion of my excursion here on earth but truth be told if I ever did – I always knew this would my wedding song. Can you just picture it? Oh I can and actually have many, many, many times.

Everyone one is sad about MJ and it is a tragic story but I am still missing Andy. How often does that story need to be told???