Supreme Evil

I love these mash ups but must say this one literally knocked me out of my chair and onto the dance floor (aka my kitchen floor). You need to play this! And if any one knows how to convert videos to mp3 please let me know. I tried to figure it out but not much luck as I am a bit techno-challenged.

Let's All Keep Our Fingers Crossed

Well it seems like there is a South African prince that has gotten himself into a pickle. Due to the dastardly actions of some less desirables his rightful claim to his country's fortune has become a big mess. He very kindly contacted me via email and advised me that if I were to assist him and invest my money in his efforts he can easily rectify the situation and I would recoup a 1000% return on my investment. How could I ever miss the boat on such an amazing opportunity both to assist another human and myself all at the same time. I promptly replied to him and advised that I would very eagerly invest to assist him with his toils and that I am an heir to a vast fortune due to my family's abundance of money made in the discovery and patent of paper clips, however due to some renegade litigation my money is all tied up. I furthermore told him that if he wires me $10,000 USD that I can quickly clear up the legal red tape, obtain my portion of my family's money and then turn that around to invest in restoring his proper post in his countries monarchy. So let's just all keep our fingers crossed that the old saying "You scratch my back and I will scratch yours" is a universal one. PS I am not kidding I really did respond with this proposition.

Possibility

I am very excited tonight and filled with possibility. A job has been posted at my company that I am thrilled about. It is a job I have perfect skills for plus has room for growth and is based in SoCal. I immediately set out about working on this interested and possibility. I have met twice with the hiring manager so far in just the week it has been posted. It is working on business to business systems in a customer service capacity but closer to implementation. Knowing this is a great chance and a great fit I have started sounding the war drums and getting my interest out there from HR, to operations, to sales, and to the VP of the division. All have met this with resounding enthusiam. It makes me feel so good to have such large players immediately behind me based on what I have delivered so far and have the potential to deliver in the future. One of my biggest supporters is the VP. I felt so very proud as he clearly expressed this to me. So although at this point I have no offer or paper to sign - I feel ecstatic with possibility. I am not counting my chickens yet though and am prepared to take my severance if it comes to that but either way knowing how decisively I stood up to fear. How I took an active role in my live. How I am making things happen for me!

Blue Roses

On Sunday I when to see the Glass Menagerie as it was playing over in Coronado. Coronado is so incredibly nice. It is a beautiful little beach town and yet although in SoCal it is very New Englandy - so quaint and cute and littered with Victorian houses. The production was excellent. The theatre group there always does a fantastic job. I have seen this play many times as it is just one of my all time favorites. The intensity and desperation of Tom and Amanda and the quiet simplicity of Laura. So moving that it just wrenches my heart each and every time. Funny thing though, for as many times as I have seen it something new dawned on me. When the the Gentleman Caller breaks Laura's favorite glass piece, a unicorn, she says that it is ok because now he is just like all the other horses in her collection and not the only different one. I always understood the metaphor that Laura is for a fleeting moment just like all the other girls as she has her heart touched for the first time by love in this moment with this man. But now I see that it is more than that. As soon as she falls in love her delicate heart is shattered just a moment later. A piece of her innocence is so promptly chipped out of her heart. Much like the unicorn is like the other horses now she too is like so many other people now because she has had her heart broken. I guess it is perspective and I find it interesting that this basic perception has eluded me all these years. My rose tinted view always stopped at the fact the she loved for the first time and yet now the power of being heartbroken comes into my view as well. Perhaps experience brings understanding. Well nonetheless I cried as I always do during this play. Surley tears of a slightly different ilk this time but they are still mine and I would not trade them for anything.

You Know You're in SoCal When...

I heard a story on the radio that during a festival in June in Portland, ME they are going to attempt to break the record for the World's Largest Lobster Roll. What made me laugh is the correspondent had to make the distinction that a lobster roll is a sandwich not sushi. Yes folks I certainly do live in Southern California.

Pack Rat Payoff?

As I watched the final performances and decisions on American Idol this week it dawned on me that they had mentioned Adam played in the LA production of Wicked. It inspired me to dig through my bottom bureau draw and voila I produced my Playbill from the show clearly showing Adam as part of the production. How exciting. More exciting was that I had the insert to show that Adam, who was the understudy, played the lead of Fiyero in that particular performance. Way cool. I clearly remember that show as I went with Debbie when she visited me the first time and we had second row seats. A moment after I had thought to myself how cool, I though this is so getting posted to ebay. I will always have the memory and I have been cleaning like a madman so I figured why not - no matter what price it sells for it will be more valuable than having another Playbill cluttering my bottom draw. I posted it for 99 cents because the demand will set the price so who knows what it will end at. Plus it makes it more fun, kinda like gambling and Papa needs a new pair of shoes - perferably not ruby red ones. If you would like to keep up on where this all ends up then here is the link to my auction:

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&ssPageName=STRK:MESELX:IT&item=270397197771

Poor San Diego

First Miss California, who is from San Diego, comes in 2nd place in the Miss USA pageant and now we have to take 2nd place in American Idol too??? Seems when there is some gay hoopla it automatically makes you the next best thing. I have to admit though Kris was so boy next doorish - I was secretly happy he won. Plus no one can take away from us that we are still America's Finest City. Dunno who voted that in place but I am sure it was official in some manner or other.

Michelle's Memories

I have not done one of these in a while but I was fishing through that silly jar again recently. It is so enjoyable. This one says:

That picture of Brian.

Editors Note: I so remember the picture. It was my younger brother in some crazy Fredrick's of Hollywood man panties. Michelle and I were at a function. I am thinking one of the many, many weddings we attended. I am not sure though - it may have even been the superb Dew Drop's big day. Well anyway I stopped on my way to the function hall and picked up some pictures I had developed. I dunno - I just always have errands to do so I squeeze them in whenever. As we sat at the table and thumbed through the pics BAM there is my brother in the most surprising manner. Seems he borrowed my camera. I dunno it was all crazy. You are gonna have to help me out with this one. You know I don't even know what ever became of that picture. Man did we giggle a lot during that function.

I Cannot Wait to Post This

Here is Luis. We met one night recently and really hit it off. Of course you can see he is super handsome but what a nice guy too. He is Mexican and teaches special education students. He is 30, drives an SUV, and took ballet classes for 11 years. He is the youngest child of 15! When I heard that I told him that if he was American he would be on tv. I was smitten. We hooked up the first night we met - sometimes I am a devil. Well we stayed in touch and we saw each other a couple of weeks later. I was really starting to like him so on that second meeting - which went as fantastic as the first - I said no to the hook up because I wanted to get to know him more. He understood and was a bit pleased by it. Perhaps that is kinda odd - I mean a hook up is one thing but if I am interested then I hold out. Is that a bit twisted or just residue from Puritanical influences?

We continued to stay in touch and a couple more weeks went by and we met up again. I am delighted as it is light and enjoyable and felt good. During this third meeting he unexpectedly pops open his cell phone and shows me a picture of an ultrasound. I thought it very strange that he showed it to me. I asked what it was and he told me it was a baby. I advised him that I understand what an ultrasound is but was curious if it was his niece or nephew. He replied it was his child. Alrighty then - time for Tequila! Was I ever shocked (that is possibly the most understated sentence on all of this blog). Sure I was still in the process of getting to know him, but a baby? I would never have guessed in a million years. Plus the delivery of the news added to the what the hell just happened feeling of the situation. He said that he had a girl friend for a year and they broke up 3 months ago and she just told him she was pregnant. WOW.

He is a good guy. He did not have to tell me all at this point and I would never have known. When I think of his delivery perhaps it was just the easiest way for him to get the story across to me. However all said and done, it did buy him a one way ticket to friendville. I have no problems with a man who has children but a man who is in the process of having a child, well that is a horse of a different color. That is a life changing event and really not the best time to be trying to get to know someone - in my small opinion. So I am curious and will tread lightly continuing to get to know him in a platonic manner. There is no denying, if nothing else, he certainly is entertaining to be around and absolutely enjoyable to look at.

First Communion

When I was back in MA recently it was for my neice Jordan's First Communion. Check out how sweet this picture is. She is such a princess. In addition she is a complete lovebug and that makes me very happy. I was so glad I was able to make this! Have not missed one yet and have two nephews to have theirs in the future. I will definitely be there for theirs too!

The Return of Carson!

Hey there everyone! I was all kinda dizzy and lost but here I am. I have returned.

My Prisoner

I do the oddest things sometime - I realize this but I cannot help it. Well I was doing something on the web and came across a site that helps you write to inmates. I thought to myself how much I like to write and really enjoy sending mail. Then I thought it would be cool to have a pen pal and it would be putting my likes and skills to good use. We all make mistakes and I truly believe in second chances so if getting mail from me helps a guy out then I am cool with that. So I went out and got a PO box and created an alias - since I am not completely crazy. I selected an inmate - of course I picked one that was cute and is gay. I wrote a couple letters and got no response. I tried to tell myself that perhaps he is busy but honestly it did bug me a bit. It also hurt my ego that a man locked up 23 hours a day was too busy to write? I kinda chalked it up as a good attempt and went about my things. Well don't you know a letter finally showed up. It was a response from my prisoner and it was actually a remailing of the letter he sent to me that got returned to him. I did notice that he put the wrong zip code so perhaps that was the problem. Well he was all excited to get my mail because I was the only one that did not write a sex letter!!! My prisoner thinks I am normal - can you imagine? I thought it gross that the guys that inquired about sex life in prison but liked that he simply replied to them, "All I can tell you is go commit a crime".

His name is Larry and time will tell if we can get this pen pal thing going or if it will fade. I am just pleased I got a response and will keep you all updated as this story unfolds.

Happy Cinco de Mayo

Yes, Go On, I am Listening

This picture cracks me up. It was taken at the happy hour I had for my staff before they got let go. I am not sure what I was being told but boy am I listening intently. It makes me think if I was a psychiatrist then I would be able to make the perfect face as I say, "And how does that make you feel?".